It’s a funny thing but people have often said to me, ‘don’t think so much, you’re just upsetting yourself.’
And though it may be quite true it doesn’t help.
The problem is that I am a thinker it’s who am, it’s one of my strengths, that and planning. So when people just blithely say you think too much it feels like they are saying thinking things over more than once or twice when it causes you pain is wrong and therefore bad and I feel guilty about it. In point of fact for a long while my ruminating actually got worse because of this sort of comment.
There are times when it ruminating has been the death of me but dealing with how your mind works is the important factor.
Okay so I think a lot about stuff in general, but that doesn’t mean I ruminate about everything and if you’ve had people say this to you I’m sure you may have occasionally felt like I do, frustrated and annoyed, guilty of making my life harder than it needs to be. Possibly guilty of making yourself ill too. It's not fun.
Well I asked somebody when I was feeling somewhat put out that one of my strengths was being belittled, that I was basically being told I was making myself ill, to explain what they meant. It’s crazy really but there really isn’t an easy way to see if you are ruminating or an easy way to reduce doing it. I’ve chipped away at mine but it is still there. In fact I find so much of my ruminating is the stuff that’s unconscious and creeps into my negative self talk that goes round and round. It’s not my everyday thinking.
So Ruminating!
The circular thinking pattern that causes you pain. A going over and over of something that you can’t change that results in altering your mood and behaviour poorly, for instance reducing motivation, increasing or decreasing aggressiveness or causing pain.
Lovely right, you’d think it was easy to spot.
Think again it’s really not. On an average day I think things through more than once and when it is something is important I often think things through quite a few times and depending on what it is, probably daily for a while too. You know things like grief, moving house, going for an interview, but then we come to missed opportunities and past problems and were we rude or aggressive, did we cause offence.
I guess some people would say ‘oh you’re being pedantic of course I didn’t mean these things’. And maybe they are right but it has taken me a long time to really get a handle on what I needed to think through a few times and when I was just ruminating.
So how do I do it?
Well strangely I think it through a bit! I mean, I ask myself am I thinking about this a lot? Why am I thinking about this now? Was it something someone said or watching something? Has it just been churning under the surface all the time, am I irritable, it’s always a good sign something is going on underneath.
Then I ask myself, how does it make me feel? And after the first thought, I feel angry or scared, I then ask and what else am I feeling? For me there is always more than just one feeling floating around so I do a little exploring and test a few ideas out. It’s never just one feeling.
Then I ask how am I reacting to this thinking? do I feel angry, defensive, do I feel enthusiastic or less motivated, does my self esteem take a hit do I feel less worth it. Do I feel less like saying something or complaining, do I feel resigned or powerless to change something.
Then I ask, why would I want to do that to myself right now, what is altering my behaviour in this manner doing for me. What is it protecting me from? What do I think would happen if I had not changed how I was reacting? Am I now not going to complain, or cry or be emotional in public, am I avoiding a fight, or avoiding looking good or showing someone up.
You will be surprise what you will find lurking in your mind if you do this. I certainly was and it’s the unbidden immediate reactions that were the most honest and surprising to me. My feelings are often masked by the more pressing how I should feel about things and so much of the time this should response is so quick on the heals of the firs honest one I have great difficulty finding the first one. But it is so import to catch hold of the fleeting first response that is honest because it is revealing and can really show you what it is you need or were looking for to escape. A little patience and you can turn that oh my god I was just trying to avoid an argument because I thought it would all blow up in my face… to but why should it, we're reasonable people. Well not everybody is but the point is to see what you're doing first then and then to work out what to do that causes you fewer problems or pain.
And once you’ve found that honesty it’s amazing how a, you can lose it again but b, how often find the answer to your ruminating is self evident. I don’t mean easy because changing is difficult but if someone is nasty but can’t tolerate it happening to them and you have a pattern of thought that stops you being more assertive then the ruminating thoughts are holding you back from stopping the nasty comments.
And though it may be quite true it doesn’t help.
The problem is that I am a thinker it’s who am, it’s one of my strengths, that and planning. So when people just blithely say you think too much it feels like they are saying thinking things over more than once or twice when it causes you pain is wrong and therefore bad and I feel guilty about it. In point of fact for a long while my ruminating actually got worse because of this sort of comment.
There are times when it ruminating has been the death of me but dealing with how your mind works is the important factor.
Okay so I think a lot about stuff in general, but that doesn’t mean I ruminate about everything and if you’ve had people say this to you I’m sure you may have occasionally felt like I do, frustrated and annoyed, guilty of making my life harder than it needs to be. Possibly guilty of making yourself ill too. It's not fun.
Well I asked somebody when I was feeling somewhat put out that one of my strengths was being belittled, that I was basically being told I was making myself ill, to explain what they meant. It’s crazy really but there really isn’t an easy way to see if you are ruminating or an easy way to reduce doing it. I’ve chipped away at mine but it is still there. In fact I find so much of my ruminating is the stuff that’s unconscious and creeps into my negative self talk that goes round and round. It’s not my everyday thinking.
So Ruminating!
The circular thinking pattern that causes you pain. A going over and over of something that you can’t change that results in altering your mood and behaviour poorly, for instance reducing motivation, increasing or decreasing aggressiveness or causing pain.
Lovely right, you’d think it was easy to spot.
Think again it’s really not. On an average day I think things through more than once and when it is something is important I often think things through quite a few times and depending on what it is, probably daily for a while too. You know things like grief, moving house, going for an interview, but then we come to missed opportunities and past problems and were we rude or aggressive, did we cause offence.
I guess some people would say ‘oh you’re being pedantic of course I didn’t mean these things’. And maybe they are right but it has taken me a long time to really get a handle on what I needed to think through a few times and when I was just ruminating.
So how do I do it?
Well strangely I think it through a bit! I mean, I ask myself am I thinking about this a lot? Why am I thinking about this now? Was it something someone said or watching something? Has it just been churning under the surface all the time, am I irritable, it’s always a good sign something is going on underneath.
Then I ask myself, how does it make me feel? And after the first thought, I feel angry or scared, I then ask and what else am I feeling? For me there is always more than just one feeling floating around so I do a little exploring and test a few ideas out. It’s never just one feeling.
Then I ask how am I reacting to this thinking? do I feel angry, defensive, do I feel enthusiastic or less motivated, does my self esteem take a hit do I feel less worth it. Do I feel less like saying something or complaining, do I feel resigned or powerless to change something.
Then I ask, why would I want to do that to myself right now, what is altering my behaviour in this manner doing for me. What is it protecting me from? What do I think would happen if I had not changed how I was reacting? Am I now not going to complain, or cry or be emotional in public, am I avoiding a fight, or avoiding looking good or showing someone up.
You will be surprise what you will find lurking in your mind if you do this. I certainly was and it’s the unbidden immediate reactions that were the most honest and surprising to me. My feelings are often masked by the more pressing how I should feel about things and so much of the time this should response is so quick on the heals of the firs honest one I have great difficulty finding the first one. But it is so import to catch hold of the fleeting first response that is honest because it is revealing and can really show you what it is you need or were looking for to escape. A little patience and you can turn that oh my god I was just trying to avoid an argument because I thought it would all blow up in my face… to but why should it, we're reasonable people. Well not everybody is but the point is to see what you're doing first then and then to work out what to do that causes you fewer problems or pain.
And once you’ve found that honesty it’s amazing how a, you can lose it again but b, how often find the answer to your ruminating is self evident. I don’t mean easy because changing is difficult but if someone is nasty but can’t tolerate it happening to them and you have a pattern of thought that stops you being more assertive then the ruminating thoughts are holding you back from stopping the nasty comments.
In the same way reminding yourself that all men leave, or all relationships end my well stop you from trying to find the companionship that you want. They would both cause you pain.
I think the main thing here is to realise that ruminating can be a short burst of a pattern of thought that results in altering your behaviour in the short term or the long term.
So a blast of how useless you’ve always been, how you’ve never managed to do this, or a continued going over of events without changing
As well as the more in depth analysis that comes over a long period of going over the same thing.
For me if I’m looking to understand how I felt and I find something new each time I think about it, whether I cry or not, then it’s not ruminating. This finding out how I feel is really helpful to me as it helps me change not only how I view things but also how I feel about them. The problem can be that it can take a long time to see if I’m really not learning something new or if it’s just a pattern that keeps me stuck going over and over. To fully understand myself is good but if you never say okay I have everything now, so what do I do to change this, or ask yourself why am I not doing something about this then I am ruminating and often I think this is what people complain about.
It is not easy to find the way out especially if you don’t trust that you really understand yourself well enough to say okay that’s it, now lets do something about it.
I would say that I have sat and waited to see if more would surface without considering that I should be doing something about the things I already know. But this is a problem based on feeling controlled and powerless. You see I found that there are layers upon layers of thinking and it is these that my thinking helps me unpick and I am glad to say that now I have found out why I have not acted. I am taking some action but I have not stopped looking to see if there is something else going on….because I certainly have found that mostly there is always something else its’ kind of living really.
I would say find your answers and that way I feel you will also find your resolution even if that is just to have sympathy for the awful things that have happened to you. You cannot change anything except what you choose to do next however the past can be resolved.
I think the main thing here is to realise that ruminating can be a short burst of a pattern of thought that results in altering your behaviour in the short term or the long term.
So a blast of how useless you’ve always been, how you’ve never managed to do this, or a continued going over of events without changing
As well as the more in depth analysis that comes over a long period of going over the same thing.
For me if I’m looking to understand how I felt and I find something new each time I think about it, whether I cry or not, then it’s not ruminating. This finding out how I feel is really helpful to me as it helps me change not only how I view things but also how I feel about them. The problem can be that it can take a long time to see if I’m really not learning something new or if it’s just a pattern that keeps me stuck going over and over. To fully understand myself is good but if you never say okay I have everything now, so what do I do to change this, or ask yourself why am I not doing something about this then I am ruminating and often I think this is what people complain about.
It is not easy to find the way out especially if you don’t trust that you really understand yourself well enough to say okay that’s it, now lets do something about it.
I would say that I have sat and waited to see if more would surface without considering that I should be doing something about the things I already know. But this is a problem based on feeling controlled and powerless. You see I found that there are layers upon layers of thinking and it is these that my thinking helps me unpick and I am glad to say that now I have found out why I have not acted. I am taking some action but I have not stopped looking to see if there is something else going on….because I certainly have found that mostly there is always something else its’ kind of living really.
I would say find your answers and that way I feel you will also find your resolution even if that is just to have sympathy for the awful things that have happened to you. You cannot change anything except what you choose to do next however the past can be resolved.